Why is it that the end of something is always accompanied by such a mix of emotions and feelings. I think Relient K was right when they said emotional girls should all wear mood rings, I could use some help myself. This is my last week here in Ohio for the summer. It has been such an amazing experience. I have learned a lot about ministry, about kids, about myself, quite honestly I feel like my brain is over drive and I will probably need about 6 years to process all of this, but will have to make do with about 6 days. Anyway, I'm really truly sad about leaving next week, which is not really a new emotion, but maybe it is a little. Usually when big things are over I'm just happy to be done. I'm a very strange person we all know this. SO yeah, I'm sad to go, but I'm also really looking forward to being home. I'm sure I've mentioned before that I REALLY LIKE MY FAMILY A LOT! and as irritating and loud and crazy and despite the fact that my dad won't let my pierce my nose (some one make sure he reads this okay?) I really missed spending the summer with them. It's always an experience, like relearning how to live with people again of course then I just go back to school and I have to relearn how to live with those people. OH life is crazy and wonderful and just... So along with being sad and happy comes this weird feeling that time is like going a little bit wacky. Sometimes a minute can feel like an hour and other times and hour feels like a minute, and sometimes I just really want the time to pass so I can go home and others I want the time to last so I can stay and enjoy the things I've done here this summer. I really really don't like this at all!!!! emotions are really not a good thing for people who like to feel that they are in control. Not that I have any trouble showing my emotions, just ask anyone who has spent any amount of time in the Caf on macncheese day. Sometimes it just really doesn't end well. But I would really just like to have one emotion a good one or a not so good one I don't really mind but the weird mix is just freaking me out and I have worked very hard at not being a freak out... well mostly. So yeah I don't really know how I feel about any of this. I'm going to listen to relient k and maybe figure something out.... probably not it'll just confirm the fact that I think this is all very frustrating. Well there ya go.
until next time.
My favorite part of this: the mac and cheese day comment. The end.
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