Satan is stupid and someone should tell him.

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2. If you don't know what #1. means consider yourself lucky.

3. Mr. Glasses Cutehair + a snoring store clerk = at least twenty minutes of great times.

4. Never ever ever take for granted true friends

5. Crying MUST be good for the soul.

6. Shameless flirting will probably get me into trouble someday... actually it already has, well maybe someday I'll learn. :\

7. Kids getting extremely excited over VBS games makes me unnecessarily happy.

8. Teddy Bear picnic... we'll be making in an annual event.

9. ...___________...

10. #9 is not for lack of things to say.


So it's been a very interesting day here in Alliance OH. I have and an overwhelming urge to just go home. Now, don't get me wrong I am really enjoying my stay here. I love getting to know the students and learning more about them, as well as learning about myself. Well, maybe not so much the learning about myself part, but its good none the less. Maybe it's just because my family was here last week and we all know that I mostly likely have an unhealthy attachment to my family (if there even is such a thing) and for whatever reason today I just really wanted to go home. I have felt the grip of Satan in my life today like I have never felt him before. I'm almost certain that anyone I saw today was convinced that I had probably just been through some kind of tragedy. Try as I might the smile that I love to wear was just not coming out today. Maybe it's just the midsummer blues or something I'm not really sure. But I do know that I have made the decision to make the best of everything and have fun everywhere I go. Worry and anxiety (which come quite naturally to me) are two activities that I refuse to engage in. Satan, unfortunately, is very much aware of this and for whatever reason has targeted me and and my anxious self. But the week is young and the summer has plenty of summer life left in it and I refuse to pulled down and troubled by Satan and his stupid antics. Also I am mainly writing this because it will help me (I know that sounds really selfish) Many who know me well know that making sure people do not see me is struggle has been a life goal for some time. I have realized (with the help of a few people)that we all struggle and sometimes the struggle is better for your faith than the lack thereof. and so there you have it I am very much struggling to be this week.(Why I am compelled to write all of that and leave it in is completely and totally unknown to me... I deleated it about 20 times, but I just kept writing the same thing again. UGH!)

And so I have several goals for this week

1. Be happy.

2. Enjoy the deep sea adventure everyday.

3. Embrace my geekness.

4. Have one day filled with PANDEMONIUM!

5. Celebrate cows in all their greatness.

6. Do not stress about things I have no control over.

7. Drink coke.

8. Smile until my muscles ache.

9. Do not cry over anything that is not worthy of tears.

10. Live in the right now.

"4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:4-7

I have adopted this as sort of a life verse, and honestly hadn't given it much thought for most of the summer as far as my own life goes. But the last time I read it I was convicted because I was most definitely not living this out. I am always amazed by God and the way he teaches us, me especially I suppose. mmmh. Praying for my friends and family this week.

Until next time...